Travis and I have been waffling about whether to have another baby for about a year now. Wait much longer and the choice will be taken out of our hands by the inevitable exigencies of encroaching middle-age. Translation – I’ll be peri-menopausal and then menopausal sooner than I think.
In the meantime, though, we to and we fro. On the one hand, it would be nice for Petra to have a sibling. My family isn’t large, and Travis’s is a long way from here, so Petra doesn’t have a big extended family to belong to. If she remains an only child, she’ll have to have to deal with aging parents by herself. She’ll miss out on the unique relationship siblings have – they’re the only other people who know all about you and where you come from. And at the moment, she’s our exclusive focus, which I don’t think will be so comfortable for her as she grows up and asserts her independence.
On the other hand is my wariness and weariness as I contemplate doing it all again. I enjoyed being pregnant and while the labour was hard work, it was manageable. I never felt overwhelmed and I never needed pain relief, despite being induced. I’d quite happily do both of those things again. What gives me pause is the thought of the sleepless nights, the all-encompassing exhaustion of the first few months. I remember someone spouting that “enjoy them, the time goes so fast,” platitude at me when Petra was a couple of months old, and me wanting to wring their damn-fool neck because I was so knackered.
They were right of course, babies are wonderful and you only have them for about a year. In that time, your tiny baby sits, crawls, stands, then strides off into toddlerhood, leaving you awed and gasping in her wake.
So we remain at stalemate. I’m reluctant to finally rule out another baby, because babies are lovely; I’m reluctant to finally rule in a second baby because they’re hard tiring work.
Here’s what you look like as a new mum – kind of blotchy, with dark rings around your eyes – but smiling and smiling.
Unless you’re Miranda Kerr, model and wife of Orlando Bloom, in which case you look like she does in this lovely breastfeeding photo.