Things are different.
I spent 40 weeks being pregnant, and 2 years, 11 months, and a couple of weeks breastfeeding. Almost four years of being in an altered hormonal state.
Petra’s been fully weaned for several weeks now and I’m noticing changes. Obvious ones like my shrinking, sagging, and very sore breasts. And more subtle, unexpected ones. My first period post-weaning has been very heavy and I’ve felt lousy for days. The growth patterns of my body hair have changed (sped up unfortunately). I wonder whether the hair on my head will start falling out – I didn’t lose much after Petra was born, unlike other mums I know.
And my brain has come back. I feel as if I’ve suddenly woken up after a long time in a dream state. I’m thinking again, having ideas, arguing with and reacting to things I read and see. It’s very exciting.